Late-Bloomer

My heart longs to be the person that is already living out their passion or at the very least has an idea of what that is.
 
But I don’t, and I have always felt like a bit of a late-bloomer when it comes to all that passion stuff.
 
I am a couple of years away from forty and I've always heard that in your early thirties you become comfortable in your own skin. You discover your sweet spot. Well, here I am at 38 and I am just starting the journey of finding and living out my passions. Seven years ago, I “officially” began the journey of finding my strengths and desiring to discover my passion, but it has only been recently that they are coming to the surface. (Making me feel a bit late in my book. :))
 
Finding your passion in your early thirties or before sounds beautiful doesn't it? But that period of time would have found me in survival mode with 4 kids five and under, physical exhaustion, hormonal imbalance, and in our first year of homeschooling. To say the least, finding my sweet spot wasn't at the top of my priority list during that season.
 
I tend to be impatient when it comes to physical or personal growth. I also love to observe, which often leads to comparing myself to others who have already discovered their passion. I then become envious and internally frustrated that I don't have a “passion”. (Cue: anxiety.) This mix of impatience, comparison, and frustration was prominent in my life for several years.
 
But here's what I have learned over the past few years;  this journey is unique just as I am unique.  I am enough right now doing exactly what I am doing. Some people will find their passion early in life and some much later. Some will be able to live out passion after passion while others will not, but that is where the beauty lies;  in YOUR story. You need only compare yourself to what has been placed in your heart and live that fully. Once you get to this place, finding your passion becomes much easier and living fully is the natural progression.
 
It has taken years for me to come to peace with the journey and the timeline on which this journey is unfolding, but I trust that He has a plan and purpose for the timing and I keep learning, growing, and taking the next step.

I don't know where you are on your journey right now, but what I do know is that you are exactly where you need to be and you are enough.
 
I am living out my dream of motherhood and being a wife, and lately there has also been a desire to create, lead, and share my story. I'm not entirely sure what that looks like in this season. I am still learning how this all fits together, but the exploration process has been challenging and fulfilling.
 
Most mornings I read a chapter from A Gracious Space by Julie Bogart. This morning I read chapter 29 and this spoke to my heart, "In fact, my sense of personhood, identity, and self-knowledge have grown more through mothering than any business I've started, any degree I've earned, and relationship I've pursued…" Being a mom is a beautiful place to be and I couldn't agree with Julie more that the lessons learned are like none other. So, if you’re a mom who’s not quite ready or needing to find another passion, then just remember that what you are doing right now is so valuable and so important.
 
Things will come together at the right time. Simply take that quote for example. After I quickly typed out the thoughts on my heart, I had my quiet time and this is what I found, "Gideon powerfully defeated an oppressive army vastly outnumbering his own because of the power of God working through him. God longs to fill you and empower you today. He longs to conquer the works of the enemy that oppress those he loves through you. Meet with God today. Allow him to call out the greatness he has placed within you. Allow him to guide you into battles only he could win that you might bring his kingdom to earth all around you. May you be filled with his love, grace, and power today as you open your heart and spend time communing with your heavenly Father."  
 
Self-care action - What makes you unique? What are your strengths? What is special about your family and how you live life? Write these down and anything else that comes to mind and read them daily for a week. Let them sink in and you will be well on your way to living passionately. 
 
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